Black and White of My Life (2)

If you see the title, there's a number at the end of it.
Well, you should know that it's gonna be a looooong story.
I write this just to relieve my stress.
And of course, it is my hobby to write.

To continue the previous story, I have a story of my own being a housewife.
I married in 2014, but I think the story started even before it.
It all started in 2006, my college time.

I swore at that time that I want to live my life to the fullest.
I would have a happy time in my college and I don't want to be an outsider anymore (I was one in my high school time).
I wanted to be the best version of myself and studied hard to make my parents proud.

But, all of it was destroyed.
Not only my college life, but also my life.
I met a wrong man.
If I could, I wanted to blame everything on him.
But it was partially my mistake to believe him, to follow him.

It all started very good.
I had good friends, enjoyed my time studying, everything was good, BUT one.
One day I was introduced by my classmate to my classmate (confusing huh?).
We were classmate but I never saw him, maybe because there were so many students in my class.

At first, I thought it was destiny to meet him.
Well, love is sweet on the outside.
We talked a bit, we exchanged number, and goodbye.
I think it should have ended there but then I met him again.

In one lecture, wee needed to work in pair and I don't know why I worked with him.
We talked again, and yeah knowing each other more.
Then it continued on SMS.

Just in 3-4 months, we got together, or you can say dating.
Actually, I don't know why I wanted to be him.
I think maybe my weakness is my feeling, I couldn't say no.
If I think more about it, I got hurt so many times even before I was dating him.
He often got angry without a specific reason and I was still following him, begged for forgiveness if I have a mistake (STUPID!).
He drove a girl home, in front of me, just because he got angry I had a plan with my friends.
Sooo many things happened and I still followed him like crazy.

After dating, more disasters happened.