Black and White of My Life (2)

If you see the title, there's a number at the end of it.
Well, you should know that it's gonna be a looooong story.
I write this just to relieve my stress.
And of course, it is my hobby to write.

To continue the previous story, I have a story of my own being a housewife.
I married in 2014, but I think the story started even before it.
It all started in 2006, my college time.

I swore at that time that I want to live my life to the fullest.
I would have a happy time in my college and I don't want to be an outsider anymore (I was one in my high school time).
I wanted to be the best version of myself and studied hard to make my parents proud.

But, all of it was destroyed.
Not only my college life, but also my life.
I met a wrong man.
If I could, I wanted to blame everything on him.
But it was partially my mistake to believe him, to follow him.

It all started very good.
I had good friends, enjoyed my time studying, everything was good, BUT one.
One day I was introduced by my classmate to my classmate (confusing huh?).
We were classmate but I never saw him, maybe because there were so many students in my class.

At first, I thought it was destiny to meet him.
Well, love is sweet on the outside.
We talked a bit, we exchanged number, and goodbye.
I think it should have ended there but then I met him again.

In one lecture, wee needed to work in pair and I don't know why I worked with him.
We talked again, and yeah knowing each other more.
Then it continued on SMS.

Just in 3-4 months, we got together, or you can say dating.
Actually, I don't know why I wanted to be him.
I think maybe my weakness is my feeling, I couldn't say no.
If I think more about it, I got hurt so many times even before I was dating him.
He often got angry without a specific reason and I was still following him, begged for forgiveness if I have a mistake (STUPID!).
He drove a girl home, in front of me, just because he got angry I had a plan with my friends.
Sooo many things happened and I still followed him like crazy.

After dating, more disasters happened.

Black and White of My Life (1)

Whoa, 7 years passed already.
Suddenly feel so old heee.
Well, I really miss writing so much.
I really didn't have time to do it.
7 years passed and so many things happened in my life.
My life has changed a lot.

Now, I'm a mother of two, one daughter and one son.
They are sooo cute but sometimes really noisy, especially when they have tantrum, ugh I cannot.

My daily life is not much to see, just how a common housewife do. Cooking, washing clothes, taking care of my children, doing dishes, repeat 1.000.000.000 times.

Sometimes, only sometimes, I got a chance to enjoy myself, then I watch my fave tv show, or maybe a movie. Recently, I got to watch Kim Ji Young, Born 1982. It's a Korean movie, about a life of Kim Ji Young, a housewife.

Somehow, I feel like I am Kim Ji Young, I don't know why. I just can feel her feeling, her sadness, her thoughts. When I watched the movie, I unconsciously said to myself 'Oh my God, that's so me!'.

If you see the movie you will know that Kim Ji Young didn't even realize what she did, how she behaved, it's out of her mind control. I think it's not because she's not happy with her life, it's just that she needs a moment of being herself, just like me.

It's not that I'm not happy with my life, maybe it's just that I really URGENTLY need a moment of being myself.

Don't Walk but Run!

Have you heard this jargon?
Some of you may have.
This is Running Man's, a South Korea variety show.
It's really popular right now, not only in South Korea but also around the world.

Running Man logo (wikipedia.com)

Running Man is a show where their members have to do some missions given to get a prize.
There are seven (initially eight) members participating who have different colors and roles.

Running Man members illustration (fanpop.com)

They are Yoo Jaesuk, Ji Sukjin, Kim Jongkook, Gary, Haha, Song Jihyo, Lee Gwangsoo, and Song Joongki (but Joongki left due to schedule conflicts).
They represent their role very well and this is really interesting and funny.
Every episode has different stories and scenes which make the show not boring.

Members and their roles (fanpop.com)

Top: Jaesuk, Jongkook, Haha, Gary.
Bottom: Gwangsoo, Sukjin, Joongki, Jihyo.
(from left to right)

Besides the members, the show also frequently invites other guests, special guests.
They can be idols (boyband or girlband), singer, actor/actress, or even athletes.
Recently, they invite two soccer players, Park Jisung and Goo Jacheol, and also Sulli (a member of f(x), a girlband).

Running Man episode 153 (runningmanepisodeguide.blogspot.com)

I have so many favorite episodes (almost all of them, hehe), but I really love episode which has a twist at the end, such as episode 59 (Hip Hop Special), episode 74 (Super Powers), and episode 79 (Sherlock Holmes).
I also love the episode where there is my favorite guest, like episode 104 (Running Man Summer Olympics), episode 129 (Running Man Winter Olympics), and episode 151 (Running Man vs. Grim Reaper). 

Running Man episode 129 (Running Man Winter Olympics)

This is really interesting and funny program which can help you release your stress, hehe.
It sounds like advertisement, but really, it works!
So, go find your favorite episodes!
^_^